Quit being so negative!

Round 7, Day twenty-something
We're a week post-transfer tomorrow. Which means if I'm preggo I'll potentially start symptoms over the weekend. I've had positive pregnancy tests from about 7 days post transfer through to it not showing up until 9 days post transfer, but even then I strongly suspected I was pregnant before a home pregnancy test told me.
Lots of people who do IVF will tell you to never POAS (pee on a stick). There are a number of reasons for this, mostly I think it's because some of the drugs they give you in certain rounds (usually egg collection rounds) contain HcG which can cause a false positive. But also because it can mess with your head. Especially if you have an early loss. It doesn't mess with my head. I'm a data girl, I'd rather have the data and know. I like to take one daily from about 5 days post transfer. It gives me something to look forward to and also helps to temper my expectations. I like to stare at the pregnancy window and then pop it in the cupboard and continue to check it over 24 hours to see if there are any shadows showing up. I just wish the tests would quit being so negative. They actually look kind of sleepy and smug in this picture, like WAKE ME UP WHEN YOU'RE ACTUALLY PREGNANT...

i had a blood test on Monday which showed my progesterone levels were flagging, so they upped my pessaries to 5 a day. FIVE A DAY. 6am, 2pm, 10pm. I feel like a sub-genre porn star at this point. And I'm just apologising and saying goodbye to every piece of underwear I put on. So the $300 I spent on meds a week ago is now not going to last me through the 2WW. My bank account today was -$600 so I may just have to put a live feed on my medication regime in order to pay for it. There has to be at least one millionaire out there who's into that. Hello, Christian Grey? You listening?