Cancellation of Arctic Daycare

Round 7, Day 19
The clinic called with my transfer time. Midday tomorrow. Empty your bladder at 11am, then 600 - 800mls between 11 & 12 and hold. Oh, and take two Verapamil (used off-brand as a womb muscle relaxer) at 11.30am. I've forgotten to take that medication before, pre-transfer, so I write it down very deliberately and text DH the news.
Because I'm taking my pessaries rectally I can continue to do that (if I'd been taking them vaginally I would have had to postpone my 2pm one to 5pm to as not to disturb the magic).
I researched progesterone and bladder irritation, by the way, and it's totally a thing. I called the clinic to let them know I was still experiencing "UTI-like" symptoms in case I needed to do something about it. I can tell it's not a UTI, though, just super annoying urging and swelling. And it's heaps better since I started taking the drugs rectally. They told me to clean myself half an hour after each pessary, especially the vaginal ones. Sure, I can clean my dirty, cavernous nether regions if that's what you think is doing it. Personally I think it's just the progesterone. I'm sculling water so that I at least have something to pass every time I go to the bathroom. And a heat pack directly on my vag takes the urging and pain away almost instantly. That is not clinic-sanctioned however, just something I'm doing when it all gets too much to deal with. I won't be doing it post-transfer.
Speaking of which, I wonder how the lil bubble is going with thawing? They start to defrost them about now. I'm petrified I'll arrive at the clinic, bladder-full and they will tell me it has succumbed and the transfer can't happen. I at least want to give this little guy a chance inside me, even if he doesn't make it, to live just a little while at least. Even if that's just a day.
​So it comes to pass that as of tomorrow, I will have no embryos in storage for the first time in over 5 years. It's equal parts comforting and disturbing having such an intimate and precious possession both outside of your body but in cryogenic storage. Every time I drove past the clinic my heart tugged a little. 

References:
Does progesterone cause an irritable bladder? http://www.eleceng.adelaide.edu.au/personal/dabbott/publications/IUJ_cutner1993.pdf 
(I know this is from 1993 but basically the abstract is that ladies with increased progesterone went to the loo more frequently).

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